The smoke from fires south of here has given the sky a golden hue and made morning look like late afternoon. The sun is an orange ball. It’s hard to tell if I’m supposed to be awake or asleep, though I just woke up again. I’ve been up and down all night with pain and cramps. A miserable night. The world seems completely out of kilter. Everything seems wrong. I was expecting 80° and sunshine. I left myself a note to water early, which I did, but now I wonder if the water is going to sit on the ground all day or soak in by night. Windless and silent. Everything seems almost on hold.